A Broken Heart

Today I am off after a hectic PM shift last night..

Hurm.. I became a little bit emotional lately..especially when I heard love songs at the radio.. I'm heart broken.. I'm trying hard not to cry, holding up breaths, but I fail. Tears coming out, out of my intention, and it just couldnt stop...

I'm trying very hard to forget him, to forget all the memories we had together before. But why it seems so hard? The memories kept playing inside my head like I turn on the television, put the CD inside, and watch the movie. Yes, it is very difficult for me to accept the truth. The truth that we cant be together just because of lame reason (which I cant jot it down here). To deal with the truth, like no more text messages, no more phone calls, no more skypes, no more good morning & good night wishes.. Luckily I dont turn into a depressed state (Nauzubillah)

I google to look for 'how to deal with a broken heart'. I read articles here and there. I try to listen to many advices. But I tell you. Its not easy. Yes. its not easy. But, when I think back, till when should I be like this? Crying and crying for no reason, while he is living happily there & dont ever think of me pon. Huhu

Heartbreak is painful. Very painful.

But, I'm very lucky to have supportive family. I dont know what will happen to me without them. I'll always pray and I believe that Allah always gives us back what he'd taken, InsyaAllah..

And I'm going to move forward. I will always pray for his happiness, and may he be happy for what he had chosen. Thanks for all the memories, thanks for all the times U had spent with me before. I'll always remember U in my du'a InsyaAllah...